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† Angel †
22 October 2006 @ 01:39 am
Well I need something crazy two days ago, and that was I color my hair BLACK!!! I love it!! and a lot of people have been saying it looks good. My boss said that it looks like I'm trying to be all dark and shit. But it's not like that at all , because I'm trying to be myself again with no one telling me how I should look. I'm just sick of trying to make people happy with how I look, and not for myself. I got a new t-shirt of 'the nightmare before christmas' and I think my friend heather has the same one. Also carrie wants one too!!! lol (the cheese)(inside jk).
I'm going to start drawing again today, and I'm not going out to the bar. People keep asking and I just say NO! lol it's fun saying no lol... I LOVE IT!! Mike came over yesterday, and we watch a movie, but he had to go to work for 4pm. It's was nice having him around again, but I just don't feel the same. My trust is gone in him, and I just getting the feeling of "I don't care". It makes me sad because I'm not like that with my friends at all, and I will go to the end of the world to help someone. so I just don't know what to do with him or myself.
Also I fine that I'm growing away from my friends, and I just feel like being home all the time. It's not that I don't want to see them or be around them. I work a lot, go to the gym, and come home being tired. I will have to work on it, and make more time... it's hard
later days
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Current Music: The Fray- how to save a life
† Angel †
18 October 2006 @ 01:05 pm
Well It's been sometime, and my last post didn't work *_* lol.
I've been working a lot, but that has always been the same. OH!!! I got to watch the first two Lord of the ring movies this week at Roy's, and I hoping we will watch The Return of the King soon!!! My roommate moved in, and he is great!!! I love having luke here!!! He is a big baby, and we are so much a like it's not funny. Carrie is moving in next week, and I live in the living room. BUT I love it!!! I have my TV, computer, and bed all in the same room!!!! It's sweet!!! I'm still working out, and going to the gym. Luke keeps me going ^_^
later days.
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Current Music: watching TV
† Angel †
07 September 2006 @ 11:49 pm

I'm so sick of work, and working my ass off for nothing!!! All I do is work, and have people talk to me like I'm shit or, think low of me because I work at a fast food place... I know subway isn't like MD, but it still take out. But I'm going back on nights soon!!! that makes me happy.. no more getting up for work at 5am soon!!! Thank GOD!!! ^_^ But once I start working nights I can't go to dooley's on thursdays. IT's to hard to getting all my work done by 11pm, and to be out of the door for my ride. Also I can't ask people to come and get me each week with the way gas is. To tell you the truth I don't like going as much now, because Roy doesn't feel like singing anymore, or someone is always in a bad mood.

Like today I was having a bad day at work.... right?? lol. But I keep telling myself that I was going out with my friends tonight to get some things off of my mine, but carrie came at a 11 and told me that almost everyone want home. so now I'm sitting here just thinking to myself... also going crazy lol.

I think I'm just going to work on myself right now. All I' going to do is work, go to the gym, and sleep. I feel like drawing again. I miss it.... and if I have the free time maybe hang out with friends. OH!!! I will still have movie night with carrie... so for the next three months or so I will be working hard to make myself feel great again....

I just hope my friends understand.. I will miss then, but I need to do this to be happy....
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† Angel †
20 July 2006 @ 01:41 pm
so last night I was over at luke's for some drinks, and was just the two of us for most of the night. Mark came around 11:30, and Mike showed up at 12am or so. we all went to the OH at 12:45.. I think. It was so so hot, and a lot of girls too. I didn't have fun at all. I wasn't in the mood, and I had more fun hanging out with luke before. I also hate going out on WED.... it sucks for me.

Oh yA!!! well I was also talking to the guy I like, and he said he doesn't know what is wants. That he is lost right now, and needs time to himself. WELL!!! that fucking sucks for me!!! I hate not knowing whats going on, and I don't have all time just hoping he will come to me. He told me to be myself around him, and don't act weird... BUT HOW THE FUCK CAN I DO THAT!!!! He kissed me!! tells me he likes me!!! and how is saying he doesn't know!!!!!! HOW THE HELL DO I ACT TO THAT!!?? I hate men...

Today sucks too!! because I can't go to dooley's!!! I work at 4 to 11pm!!! So I can't se my friends, or hear roy sing -_-

This week sucks ASS!!!!!!
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